Sunday, 6 March 2022

Anneke Brassinga: 'Verborgen tuinen'

Hidden gardens

 

 

the secret garden

i.m.f.

 

“Wingnut.” “A pleasure, how are things with you; Crimean-lind, 

no, not of the Crimehilde family, or maybe she is 

an impoverished branch–” “It’s as if I know you from a former life;

 

was it Tiergarten, when all of us were chopped up

for firewood in that war winter 

or Buddha’s deerpark?” “A dash of cloud with your rain?” 

“And a little honey from the last bee would be nice.”

 

Still a smart tweed-green, discreetly lisping, they stand right behind Ting-Jie, 

Miss Ginkgo, who rich and graceful above the hoi-polloi

would be a golden fanfare if colour could resound.

 

The radiant is weightless, sings in silence. Lifts itself, flies, swirls, sinks.

The Turkish hazel, the yellow black alder, the sun

has fecundated her fruit. 

 

Then, like tinkling glinting of light-cascades, Zeus too came

and scattered his deadly abundance in the turret room

of the locked-up maiden:

conception, inclining always to its end.

 

Everything drifts down towards the source – 

a hallmark of autumn 

just as do you already lying there

sleeping under moss. 

 

Above the garden hangs a rounding where air conspired 

against every form of disappearance: a mouth 

opened so wide the the ground beneath our feet 

along aloft – 

 

to winter sleep among the wind-down

of migrating final geese, 

in the dark their cackling conversations almost intelligible –

 

‘If something is born, has lived, how can it ever

still escape then from the world

and the sky around it, to leave itself behind itself

for an eternity of centuries, amen?’

 

You keep silent but we hear you even so:

each leaf that falls a sigh

from under the moss.

 

 

the winter garden

 

The sweet gum  

and the black-spot-bedewed rose leaves

I grant a voice so dark as that

of the female singer who, draped over a stone pond-dolphin’s back

mercilessly enters a salty mist

billowing up from the throats of virilely but sadly blown horns

at the opening bars of K 427, the Kyrie.

 

What awaits us when the autumn starts to sing,

awakened from our own fire? Splinters, drumfire?

What does that hammering in the distance presage? –

We are still outshiners, with a wilful, lyrical lament

of self-squandered paradises, of the eternally beckoning:

entombment threatens – you already sense it – from what was of man,

in casu melody, anthem, the soul’s release.

 

Stifled to undertones from the bursting basin;

if you are old enough to have known the primal version

you are no whit deafer than then –

what makes one human is after all the imagination.

Let all that lives now gasp for breath in a final hymn of praise:

true glory is for nature, that stinking, soured yonder –

in gases that will choke us

 

already dawns a new-born winter and a new-born sound.

 

 

garden of delights well no

 

The field of the sacred apple trees is

the place where the god dwells in his world, weds her.

I have seen the schekinah on display:

a gauze bridal dress adorned with glass shards, empty sheath

the divine presence. Blind walls round about –

she has wept her eyes out: for the lacking,

the cracking which of creation is the seed.

 

In an arid desert an apple orchard can

be holy – but here? With hot snacks and loads of

drinking yoghurt on offer, and a hotline

for sexually abused footballers of advanced years?

O, the blossom so delicate, short-lived and yet part

of the tiring eternal advance: blossom, pollination,

withering. Something of the god himself, by the god himself banished,

 

makes an abyss in him. That is why she weeps, now already,

the schekinah, while creation has yet to begin,

with, straight away in the earthly paradaise, for example

the one apple tree – waste of the whirlwind,

god’s breath that will cast us out. We are down and out

until death. But the garden keeps flowering, a secluded

spot in us where a god forbade himself entry.

 

 

garden a yarn i’ve spun

 

‘Smoking’s intensified breathing.’ Smoking at night,

a final sigh before you failing yourself depart

as one that has died till that person wakes up and seems

to still be – you. 

 

Breathe all the darkness in – let white smoke flower away,

trailing. On a fragile stem your lily opens out,

stars swarm around it. Break of day

is but a dream, you may lie quietly down and die.

 

 

 

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