Said grandma – I can still hear her sweet
voice –:
The skin was nothing; God just read your
heart;
if that was
good, then you would be His choice;
He did not tell the blacks and whites
apart.
And so I saw He was not one to choose –
the dead were equal: people, negroes, Jews.
Those Jews – I mean, they were a right
queer lot.
And ugly too; they nearly all looked messes.
And so flamboyant! Bright red tartan dresses
the girls would put on, not on Sundays, but
on Saturdays. And it was just plain truth –
someone had seen them – that they throw
their dead
straight down the stairs with no trace of
regret
when death comes on the Sabbath. That’s
uncouth.
A Jew boy at our school – called Koos – had
said
he’d give me a gold watch, why I can’t
tell.
Back home they laughed since I believed
him. Well:
he said he
would, but didn’t. That was bad.
I couldn’t
wish for heaven to be due them.
You never know, though – Jews are also
human.
For Saturdays, I wished I’d been a Jew:
we had dictation then, and Koos was let
off writing, and gazed round till teacher
said
‘Koos can go now!’ and jealously I’d view
him leave with his pedantic laugh and walk
off very slowly. Once a classmate, riled,
since it was sunny, called out ‘Jew!’
That’s vile.
‘Jew!’ ‘Papist!’ – that’s no proper way to
talk.
The gold watch, well, that was a dirty
game:
he’d promised it. That simply wasn’t done.
But when he heard this, he knew he’d been
blamed,
and blushed, and slunk off quietly on his
own.
Were I a Jew like him, I thought ashamed,
he wouldn’t need to leave like that, alone.
Sunday came always like a celebration;
or rather: Saturday was when it started.
Once Koos, around eleven, had departed
we’d lark, and teacher said: in all
creation
no school’s had such unruly, fractious
minds
(he spoke just like a book). And worst of
all:
that liquorice – more like some cattle
stall
such chewing, even beasts were more
refined.
Then though, he told us tales sure to
entice,
of hunts for lions, wolves, and savage
boars
– along the wall a sun’s ray would be
gliding –
of lands where robbers lurked on foreign
shores.
Outside, the clank of buckets. Droplets
sliding
down window casings. – Classroom paradise!
We prayed before each dinner that the food
be blessed by ‘God who all of life doth
feed’,
and ‘from whose gentle hand we have
received’
what us ‘sustaineth in its plenitude’.
He gave the sun, and, if needs be, the
rain;
and if we piously did as we should,
were quick to learn and always kind and
good,
throughout life’s journey he would us
sustain.
And you spoke softly after having prayed:
as if some fine, some wondrous thing apart
hovered above that table neatly laid;
and I was grateful then with all my heart,
that we sat there so peaceful and devout –
not Mondays though, when we had sauerkraut.
The universe God’s wise love had created:
with spring, to go with flowering apple
trees;
and luscious grass, so cattle might be
sated,
He made for them – for us swedes and green
peas,
pigs for their ham and bacon, sheep for wool,
and cows for butter, cheese, milk, bones
and meat;